The challenges of emergency calls

Where do I start, almost half the year so far consumed by panic.  I am at a loss for words with the events we have seen this year.  I've gone from scared to more like cautiously safe.  I do things I shouldnt like go out without a mask.  

Another year and yet we are back to the same habits we have followed in the past.   This year I am already burned, and I only know the situation happened because the coworker told me about it.  I came to work feeling better than the prior few days.  I have had a session of down in the dumps days.  I really couldn't pinpoint what one thing caused it.  Then I get to work and the new guy who has been here less than a year, says he oddly had been approached by the chief about putting in his application for officer quickly and was handed an application.  I kind of played it off like it doesn't bother me.  But it does.  The prior chief told me I couldn't use dispatch as a stepping stone so I never tried and it's a sore topic for me.  We just got the trainee we are training ready to be on their own and now we look to cause more overtime taking a trained dispatcher out of the seat to fill an officer slot?  The applicant pool for officers al...